Lost & Broken,Found & Healed
In a matter of minutes life, as you know it can become a foreign place. What you are used to is no longer making sense, the people you are used to seem like strangers. It is to the point where you do not even recognize who you are anymore. People are talking but you just cannot seem to wrap your mind around what they are telling you. What do you mean this is my new norm? I cannot live my life like this! I am not even sure how to even start to live life this way. The day ends, and you are praying that you wake up from this horrible dream!
Here we are day two in this foreign land, trying to figure out how to even process this whole thing. Sitting in the park you start to journal out all your feelings. Day one: I am in such a place of disbelief; I cannot believe I am forced to continue with life like this. I am not only losing something I am used to, but I am also losing my comfort! Life as I know it will never be the same! I will never be the same, I will forever be lost and broken!
The journaling continues because it brings you a little relief, the more you journal the lighter you feel. You are slowly taking steps to learn about this new life you are living, trying to learn what to expect. The more you learn about this new foreign land the more you open up and allow new things in. As you are exploring you find yourself meeting new people and attending new events.
One day you are out, and you overhear someone talking about grief and therapy. As she is explaining what grief is, you start to realize this is what you are going through. Nobody as even explained to you what you were going through. Now that you understand what you are going through, you reach out to this lady about therapy. You have your first session, and it is a little uncomfortable, but you push through. The more you go the lighter you feel, and what was foreign to you is now your new norm.
You are starting to smile again, family are no longer strangers. You are not the same, but you are now gracefully stepping into the new you. Navigating your grief in a healthy way, being honest about how you are feeling. Embracing the moments of sadness but not getting stuck there. No longer being ashamed of your story but using it to help others. Now even though you are in a place of acceptance you have the understanding that you can still have a moment of disbelief. There is so much that comes with this thing called grief but now you have a better handle on it. No longer will you say you are Lost and Broken, you are Found and healed